Girl on Fire: March 2014

Saturday 29 March 2014

An update, an apology, and an anniversary

First, an update.

Life has been crazy for this gal! I started a business and really hit the pavement with it. Thinking outside the box and trying everything to make it happen. Sadly, it hasn't turned out as I planned. The ship started going down and I only have so many life boats! I love Stella and Dot! I love the product and I love the company. I wanted to try. I wanted to step outside my comfort zone and outside my box and try something completely new for me. It has really pushed me. I know I can do something, I know I can do something for me! Its also taught me that I love sales! networking not so much, but sales yes! So what does this mean? It means that I still sell. I still have a website. I'm still in it. But I won't push it. If you want to party, lets party! if you want to buy here's my website. I've networked all I can, now I need the train to move with the steam I've created. If not, it's okay. It's all okay, and I'm okay with the path it wants to take.

Next the apology.

Because I've been going at such a speed, I've left a lot of you hanging. Phone calls unreturned. Emails untouched. Facebook forgotten (sorta). For those of you who wonder if you'll ever hear from me again, in time. I have to also apologize for the next step. Being a busy (working) mom has taught me something really quickly. I'm very blessed to be able to stay home with my kids. Very Blessed! I felt during the rush, a wake up moment. It happened one night when Luigi was trying to get the princesses attention, She turned to him and said 'not right now Bud, I'm too busy'
oh Lord help me, what have I done? What have I been doing? my face; business or not, is stuck on a screen. Looking at the world. Wondering what the world is doing. Pushing the kids a side because sometimes the pressure of being mom is just too much. I'm slowing it down. Putting the phone aside. Turning the computer off. I have to. They are young, for such a short time. Such a small window, and I've been tuning my back on it. Being a mom is a really hard job. One I don't think I knew the extent of. Most days I wonder why God chose me. Why me??? I have the patience of a flea. The temper of hot pepper and I'm self absorbed. So why me? I'll never know. But I will never know if I keep my face on a screen. So for those of you who are waiting for me, those of you who are left hanging. I'm sorry. But life is flying by. Flying. I need to be present. Always. If I miss something important. I'm sorry. I love you and I love the support dear reader that you have always given me. But forgive me, I can't miss another minute and I want the kids to know and remember how much fun I am. Because I may not have patience or a good temper...but God knows how much I love getting into fun with my peeps. Its a journey and it's going to be long and hard. But I have to do this. For all of us.

Now the anniversary.

One year ago, I shoved my kids on plane. Hubs and I unsure of the next step. But it had come, the time had come to go home. Just about three years in England and we were going home. I miss Blighty. I miss her grey sky. I miss my friends that mean so much to me. It was such a long and tough 3 years. I will never forget a single minute of it. England is a big part of my heart. One day I'll go back and hug her and hold her. One day. I can't believe it's been a year. The days are long but the years are fast. I met some amazing people in the UK and I hold them dear to my heart. My dear Jo. I love you more then words can say. You were my sunshine during so many hard times. Thank you. For all you did and all that you are. You are an amazing mum and friend. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart xx Mrs Holland. Caroline. Thank you. Your friendship and laughter brought so many smiles to my face. I would of loved to burn that farmhouse down with you and laugh until it hurt as we watched it go down. Your an amazing person and are raising some amazing kids. Your good karma spreading like a blanket on everyone you meet. Thank you for being able to function on a level of crazy that kills people. That cup of tea will always be waiting for us. xx

That's that Dear Reader. xx

I'll update soon! now go catch life, before it passes you by!